The fire is set, burning burning
The flames rise high, as with each seperate soul
Surrounding them
in sync, they dance intwined
Beads of sweat glisten and solidify
Like natural diamonds, on royalty
We are the world

The moon glows with spring fever
And my muses dance to and fro
Beauties are they, of all shapes and sizes
All colors and disguises
Masks of vibrancy or neutrality
Voices either brash or bouyant
Filling me up with atomic reverence
I explode with euphoria & gratitude
for their exposure
We are the world

Colors, textures, smells, and tastes
spread all over me like a plague
only i am enjoying this sickness
this fever rushes down my skin
In salty waves
And each breeze feels great
Each sound tickles my ear drums
and im a smiling fool for the beat
im gluttonous for more
im curious, and need to learn
Such fragrances, such softness
a pure palette of decadent art
For my senses to feast upon
We are the world

We are the artists, the eccentrics
the loners and the psychics
the passionate lovers on a summer night
the divers in a deep, dark ocean
that some are to afraid to even think about
We are the world beyond this world
We are the new wave, the new cycle
to uprise, upstage,uphold,and upholster
Your artificial, crippled, little existence

Well, it seems that little things surely are falling into place piece by piece. I've gotten a larger chance at some more money in the work force and start training for waitressing tomorrow. Over the summer i might have a second job working at a summer camp, where i will be making some good money as well. My brother has also recieved a good paying job as well down at BASS retail store. So atleast that means more money coming into the house and helping Dad pay some bills alittle faster and easier. At first i was nervous to start waitressing because i was used to bussing for almost a year, but now im nothing but excited for this new opportunity. I enjoy my job down at Robert Christians and have grown used to the place, so there's nothing to be afraid of.

Creatively speaking, on Thursday i met up with this kid Ithan who wants to play bass for the band. He seemed very sincere and very devoted to his craft. Which is what my brother and i have been waiting for for what seems like forever! Mike and I were so used to people basically "talking out of their ass" and saying they wanted to do music when in reality they weren't willing to make a real effort. But this kid really wants to do this. And after checking out some of his work on Myspace Music, i decided that yes, we could definately use him. Now the only thing standing in our way is getting my brother a drumset. We might see if one of his friends could let him borrow their drums until he can save the money for one, or just wait it out financially for just a bit until he saves up some cash. Either way, he's going to get a drumset sooner or later, and the point is we've pretty much got a full band now. We've got me as the vocalist, Angel as the guitarist, Ithan as bassist, and then Mike on drums. I can't wait to get to practicing. I thank the Goddess for blessing my family like this. It really is much appreciated.

To all you Mommies out there, i hope you all have a wonderful Mother's Day weekend and force your kids into some manual labor...make 'em take you out to dinner, do the dishes, clean the house, yeah you get the point! Lol ♥

* Blessings *

Well apart from me turning 18 yesterday (yep ladies im legal now!! lmao) there has been a lot more activity going on as well. Of course when i say activity i mean spiritual activity. I think because of the clash of religions in the house (me being the only pagan follower in a house of Roman-Catholics) that there are some tense energies in the house. Because for one, no one in this house knows that i have accepted my calling to the pagan path. I havent really been able to celebrate the holidays in the way i wanted to because of course their here and if they ever found out what i practice they would literally hurt me. I love it, in the Catholic bible, it is said not to judge others for their beliefs. It is said that if no one will listen to you, then you must simply walk on and go about your routine. Yet, Catholics are the very first to judge any religion that is other then their own. Right away its "Devil Worship" to them. I believe that there are negative entities out there, but i certainly do not have a shrine dedicated to the very things i try to ward off and fight. Speaking of that, there has been a lot of negative energy circling around my home & family lately. My father had a dream about a posessed girl in my room, and then i had a dream that something dark was trying to take over my mind but i fought it off and thrashed out of my sleep. I think there is a definate mix of our personal negative energies and the energies of a dark entity melding with one another and manifesting into whatever is taking place here. So please, anyone that reads this just say a prayer for my family and may the Goddess watch over us all.

I also think my recent acception to the lesbian community is kind of throwing my mind for a loop too. It's not that i feel its wrong, because i have always loved women and kind of struggled with that fact because i grew up hearing THAT was evil too. But its just that this is yet another thing i have to keep secret from my family because my Father would disown me, and my brother even told me that if i was gay he would beat me up. So therefore im torn with this issue as well. I'm just glad that my closest friends know, and that i am sharing it here with others that even though you don't know me all that well you still welcome me with open arms and minds. I really appreciate that ALOT. Well before i take my leave for the morning i would like to wish you all a happy belated BELTANE, and hope you all had a wonderful holiday. Also i'd like to share a recent poem i have written. I will share a lot of my poetry as time goes on because it is a great passion of mine and i would like to share that passion with all of you.

Theres nothing but a wall of salt between us

thickening ocean air that makes us heave for more

a wave of ectasy washes over us, second by second

im drowning inside of you

Your eyes play the starry sky for my night

And im mesmerized, im taken, im yours

The depth of you fills my ravenous hunger

supresses my raw rage, as it spills into you

As you paint your lovely colors on my pale skin

And i want to keep my face pressed against your body

because you smell so good

So bittersweet, that it hurts.......

but i must taste, i must observe

I must probe, i must learn

I need to know everything about you

Because the depth of you, fills the emptiness in me

Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed the poem. Have a great day and enjoy the rest of the weekend too! Blessings~